I’m That Girl – a realisation.

I’m that girl.

The girl with Silver and Blue hair.

The girl with a big mouth but a small confidence.

The girl who dresses in baggy trousers and an oversized hoodie to literally any event but comes home and lies in nothing but a bra and shorts.

The girl who wears a full face of makeup and takes pictures but would never dare to post any and tells everyone she has “no clue” how to use it.

The girl who installed her own lock on the inside AND outside of her bedroom door so that nobody could mess with the one place where she feels normal.

Free.

F R E E.

The girl who dreams to make it out of this shitty town she calls her own and make it out into the big wide world. Leaving E V E R Y shitty person and place behind and never look back.

back

B A C K

The girl who looks back on all her wasted time. Wasted.

T I M E

The girl with all the time in the world to do anything she dares. Dare.

T R U T H O R D A R E?

The girls who’s never kissed a boy but has the guy of her dreams mapped down to a T.

The girl who writes and feels every emotion under the sun every S I N G L E day.

D A Y S

The girl who once spent a whole week in bed because she literally felt dead.

F U C K I N G D E A D

The girl who cut herself for the first time when she was 14 right at the top her leg just to feel alive.

just to feel…something

anything

F E E L S

the girl who cut herself a week ago today because she felt so numb

the girl who is alive..but isn’t living.

L I F E

The girl who has so much to live for, but on the darkest of days, she cannot even think of one.

O N E

one day she’ll be happy – or so they say

one day she’ll meet her tribe

one day she’ll make friends and fall in love and have the job of her DREAMS

H A P P Y

One day she’ll be happy.

I’m that girl.



W H O A R E Y O U?

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17 thoughts on “I’m That Girl – a realisation.

  1. Chips says:

    I related to all of this so much, reading this felt like looking at myself in a mirror. I’m so sorry you’re hurting, I’ve struggled with self harm for a really long time and I want you to know that my DMs/ email are always open if you need someone💙💙

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  2. Bayance says:

    Ughhh my heart. You’re so strong and I know you’ll make it out soon. At the beginning, I was like yess thats my girl with her skateboard but then I stopped smiling and aaah my emotions please don’t harm yourself again or else I’m going all the way to England and debating with the Gregg’s owner. Foreal, I wish you so much happiness! 😥

    P.S. SIS update me on your life rn I’m about to blast you on Instagram.

    P.P.S. Persona came out and you better be smiling now.

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  3. 🍵That's The Tea🍵 says:

    okay STOP!!!! This was my first time reading anything of your AND IT WAS AMAZINGGGGG. that was so good anyways, if you need anything you can always talk to your fellow blogger. also check out my blog… if you want.

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  4. imcurrentlywriting says:

    This is the first thing of yours I read. That was amazing. Since I’m not as good with words, just, it’s great. The emotion was really vivid all the way though the poem and… just wow. I stopped after every stanza just to think. Poetry has never done that to me before. (That might be because I am only exposed to it during school.)

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