(I wrote this before my prom and I don’t know why it didn’t post, oh well – ps. it was shit – I’ll tell you all what happened in another post)
Yo my dudes,
How’s life? I hope you’re all doing well and I miss you guys!! (literally writing this like 2 weeks before posting so I’m still here technically but you get what I mean – gosh, you guys always overanalyse things honestly… wow, it amazes me how weird I am)
Anyway, as you can all see by the title of this post, it is almost the time that I’ve been sin fear of for the last 5 years. Yep you heard me –
Some people look forward to it, some people hate it with a passion (#fucktheprom) and others are just simply terrified of it…enter me.
I’m that one person who is neither terrified but is neither excited either. Well, I WAS that person.
Now I’m fucking freaking out (cue the title). I don’t know why but my whole school life, I have been DREADING prom with a passion but I would always just go about my life with the mentality that “oh, you don’t have to worry about that yet, it’s not a big deal.”
WELL NOW IT IS A BIG DEAL OKAY?
So at my school, we have our prom at the town hall (yes, my school is extra) and because it’s in such an open place, the younger years come every year to cheer the 11th years on. So when people get out out their cars and limos in their fucking stunning dresses and suits, there’s a massive applause – makes sense right?
Now here comes my biggest prom fear –
What if, for example, the person before me gets out of their car and the crowd cheers SOO fucking loud – like they LOVE the person, and then I get out of my car and it’s complete and utter silence? How EMBARRASSING would THAT be? I mean, I would never be able to live that down, like ever and knowing me and my anxiety filled ass, I’d probably have a massive mental breakdown seconds before I’m meant to be arriving. And I’m pretty sure that nobody wants to see that.
Arghhh I don’t know, I’ll see how it goes – see you!! (*future me – it was shit*)